not going to use their name~ wrote on Oct 28, 2009 8:46 PM:

” Hypotheticaly speaking,if a person currently draws ssi and rely’s on public aid, why would they even worry themself about how the the Governor gets money or how he intends on paying it back?Those people don’t contribute to paying taxes anyway. “

Me: Just because one “hypthoetically speaking” happens to be on ssi for disablitiy and recives a medical card ( the only public aid I happen to recive) does not mean they want to see their state goverement bankrupt everyone in the state! Just because I don’t have to pay taxes does not mean I don’t worry about the state’s or even the nations economy. I don’t live in a bubble, I pay attention to the world around me, and when I hit the polls to elect any goverment official; local, state or federal I like to be informed on all the issues and where each candidate stands or has stood in the past. Also if the Governor passes higher state sales taxes or imposes higher fees on license plate stickers that does affect everyone, including those of us who are on ssi and public aid. I hope that satisifes your question.

* Yes I realize I am a smart alek!!!!! >=) The reason I replied the way I did was because there was a blip in my local paper that I read online that said Governor Quinn wants to borrow more yes MORE money to pay Illinois bills that we can’t currently pay!!!

The other day someone made a comment that ” as somone that recives ssi is being kept afloat by their goverement shouldn’t complain as bitterly as you do”

Hmm really?? I should just sit back and watch while my goverment acts like a drunken pirate and pilages and plunders everyone’s wallets???

The truth is I am on ssi because I am unable to work. I techincally recive it for the mental illness I have because my back injury ( thank you united facilities and perfomance temps and applegate nursing homes) was not “upheld” by the places that caused and worsened the injury because they did not want to have to own up to the fact that I was hurt at their place of employment. The nursing home I got hurt being made to pick up somone that was a 2 person lift by myself!!! They got into their wheelchair ok, but I could not straighten back up, was taken by amublance ( that should have been their first clue something was wrong) to the hospital and was told I “possibly ruputerd a disk in my lower back” of course only 2 people would back me up that the charge nurse told me to do such a thing, and they got fired for being honest!! I quit that job (ingrates) took 6 weeks off work ( doctor’s orders ) to heal and went to work.

The re-injury happend the same time I took out my left knee ( which I had to have surgery on a few years ago, it healed and then eveually got worse until I needed surgery) I was working at united falicities, slipped on one of their dammed floor pallets took out my knee and had another fully loaded pallet fall on me, ( I was face down) the thing hit my lower back. Performance Temps would not own up to the fact the place they sent me injured me, and United Facillities paid all my medical bills and at the time I was uninsured so I didn’t try to fight it ( I know now I should have sued both places for whatever I could have gotten) The addiction to painkilers came from this injury, then when I was married ( ex hubby) thought it was a good idea once while fphyiscally abusing me to throw me down on our concrte front porch steps guess what part of my body landed on the steps?? Yep you guessed right my lower back. It has never been bad enough to need surgery but if my lower back hurts within 5 minutes my entire sciatic nerve is messed up so bad that it hurts to sit up or stand or do anything. I cannot usually stand more than 2 hours unless I am constanly moving or my back can and sometimes does lock up to where I cannot move!!

But since I didn’t need surgery I was told I could not get disabiltiy for it. My depression became so crippling at one point that I was in the hostpital twice in less than 6 months and could not get out of bed so my agent at social security told me to “use the bipolar disorder to get your ssi”

I have always prided myself on being an informed person. I am very patricotic and to me part of that patriotism means I need to be up on the issues, all of the issues I need to know what goes on in the world around me, not live in some bubble and close myself off from life ( though more and more that thought is beyond tempting to me I am starting to really truly hate yes I do mean hate people in general)

Just because I do not have to pay taxes does not mean that I want everyone in this country or in my state who does pay them to be bankrupt!! I do not want to see my children’s future pillaged and plundered until there is nothing left for them. I do not want to see a future that is black, dark and bleak, where there is no hope, no opprotunities. If taxes go up they don’t only go up on income , they go up on everything else. The cost of gasoline, food, goods and services. If the state raises its sales tax I still have to pay that. Just for the record the only way a person does not pay tax on food is if they are on food stamps which I am not.

Part of the reason I am starting to be so “anti people” is because I am so tired of being hurt. Anyone that knows me knows how I am; if somone is hungry I feed them, if they are homeless I want to house them, I do as much as I possibly can for others and I always have. For the most part I don’t get it back. The stuff that happened with Jason n Stacy was really the last straw for me, it broke the easy trust I used to have in people. I have still helped people since then, but sometimes I still get duped. Sometimes, people will just take away their friendship and not even tell me why, even though I have done countless things for them. Or I will babysit for them every single time they’ve needed me to, waited outside after school for their kid because they are too busy getting a pedicure or running around doing things and not paying attention to the time, but the second I have needed them to return the favor its like I’ve asked them to give me a kidney. They may do it but complain about it, they may say in a snotty tone of voice ” well I got K from school for you, I hope you don’t make this a habit?” I’ve usually apologized for making them inconivenced but in my head I’ve been screaming “excuse me??? all of the times I do things for you, heck I spend more time with your kids than you or their father does and you can’t return the favor once??” “Heck I pretty much raise your kids and the one time I need a hand you can’t be botherd???” Of course I am too nice to say that to anyone.

I can tell you the last time I got “duped” and it really upset me to no end.. I was in McDonald’s eating lunch, it was on one of them days where I’ve been running all day paying bills and such and had not eaten all day long. Outside the window I see a family of 5 standing by a beat up van, holding a sign saying “family stranded, broke and hungry please help” being the good samaritain I am, I tell the cashier to also give me 5 hamburgers, 5 bottles of water and 5 of their apple dippers and then ask her if somone can take the food to the family, she tells me how nice I am and says yes somone can take it out to them. I go to sit down and this guy sits next to me and says ” miss that was a really nice thing you did, but I have to tell you some bad news, I live down the street from that family they both have a decent paying job and they will take that old van of theirs that usually sits in the yard out and hold up that sign to get people to buy them and their kids a meal out someplace” He says he has called the cops numerous times but unless they are caught in the act there is nothing that can be done.

Now first of all I just mumble a thanks to him and go on eating, but I felt sick to my stomach. I don’t know if this guy was being honest (but then why would he lie about something like that) or if these people were really the type of people that would use their children to gain a meal out? Then I think about “balloon boy” look at how we all were duped by that family!!! The kids dad just wanted a reality tv show, he had no real emergency and had the nation in a panic looking for this child!!!

Not only a gross and inhumane use of the 911 emergency services but of the Amber Alert system that was issued when the boy went missing as well. There are people out there that do not care who they hurt and I have known more than a few of them in my lifetime. I just read a story today about this 67 year old man in Texas that did not know he won the lottery and gave the clerk at the gas station his winning ticket the clerk told him he won $2.00 and took the ticket and money for himself!!!!

It never occurs to me to hurt, abuse, or use anyone. Heck even if I am starving I don’t like to go to the food pantrys and ask for help because there is probaly somone out there that needs the help more than I do. ( that has only happend once to me thank goodness) Jason used to tell me how naive I was, how easy I was to fool and I told him “I am not navie, Im just not an uncaring, manipultive person who has no soul, I care about others and I could never purposely use or hurt somone just because I could because I couldn’t live with myself if I acted that way”

So back to the original thought of this post.. it does not matter to me that I don’t pay income taxes I do pay taxes on everything else and I certainly am suffering from this recesion as much as anyone else is.
Since I am a U.S. Citizen born and raised here, I think that I will continue to have an opinion even if other people don’t like it.